| Afira.J Says; "I'm Dope."♔ |
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Monday, March 8 Wearing a mask. Hiding all those truths and feelings. I'm in a mess. Tangled in this whole situation. Made a wrong move. I should be hate-d. I hurt him,him,him and him. See how mess up it is. All i need is one. Feel like crying and screaming how painful it is,to go thru this. Some people just don't know it and blame me for lots of things. Try to be in my shoes,arse. Isit wrong to say i miss someone whom i hate? I don't know whats you problem ah. Like seriously. He don't fucking care about me ok. So,so,so why bother protecting him sia. I was dumb making that decision with a thinking that it will solve the problem im having. I was wrong,totally wrong. Now,with a hope that he will change before the deadline. I just love deadlines. Flashback-ed this certain scene from the past. Haish. It was funny at first but actually,hurting. Boy,if you are reading this,you know that i hate you right. K fullstop. So now he knows and i'm sure he don't care. Haha. Oh ya,the other boy,stop pretending. I can see the real truth thru you. You refuse to admit and keep covering up. What will you gain from it? Nothing. So just get over it even tho its hard. Its hard for me too. But we just gotta do it. Looking forward right now. I'll be gone for a week soon. So Jangan Nakal will be given to someone. Haha. Fyra loves to tell people whats on her mind thru songs. Better right,rather than in verbal-ly which will be so boring and draggy. Back to the story. I'm sorry to hurt anyone of you. No matter if you're a dude or a babe,i'm sorry. Some people know that i occasionally do things without thinking the side-effects. Dumb-dumb of me. Gonna end this! I love Maika. I love Arnold. I love Logan. I love Dafi. My boyfriend,Maika. Muahaha! I miss papan but i hate him. Get the idea of it? You will always be my dream boy,pantat! A.J ♥;090893 Barista Chef is the dream career. Chuck Bass aka Ed Westwick is the sex. I ♥ Tom.(: |
